Living with the "S" word. A.K.A. Suicide: A Bad Day.

Friday, May 28, 2010

The tears come swimming down through the smiles to catch me unawares.

There should be no more birthdays for me if he can't have them too.

I'm so fucking angry sometimes. Today, it's at him. For not being here. For not wanting to be here. For choosing NOT to be here.

Damnit Josh, where the hell are you?

At July 31, 2010 10:24 PM , Anonymous said...: Once upon a time in college, I knew your son. For a few months, he was a bright shining star in my world. Even though we parted on the worst of terms, I hope that he is happy and fulfilled wherever he may be. He is still remembered, even though this all has happened…. May you find the peace you deserve and know that he lives on in the minds of others.
At August 01, 2010 12:08 PM , Lisa said...: Dear anonymous,

I can't thank you enough for your comment. As his mother, I can ask for nothing more than for him to be remembered. I'm sorry your parting with Josh was on bad terms... I know all too well how he could be... sometimes the bright shining star burns. For any pain he caused, I am sorry... for any joy he brought, I hope that is what you will remember most.

Thank you again... so very much.